The (n-1)th step

Can you identify a single goal as the defining purpose of your life?

It’s good news if you have answered the above question in negation.

Human beings have been blessed with too many senses to have just 1 dream in life.

After the seemingly unending monotony of the womb when we take a look at the colourful world our senses are hit with a deluge of emotions…we fail to give the strange feeling a name. It’s a mixture of shock, pleasure, anger, surprise, annoyance and amazement. We cannot simply call it happiness…we can only compare it to being high.

And from that point onwards we get addicted to life and start fearing death. We are driven by the hope to experience that high feeling again and again. We start weaving fantasies and strive to change them into reality.

But the flavours of dreams are complicated. Every dream feels the best at the (n-1)th step.

(n-1)th step gives us the feeling of being high.

nth step gives us the feeling of happiness.

Any sane person given the option to select between the feeling of being happy and the feeling of being high would choose to be high.

The uncertainty of the (n-1)th step accentuates our senses. Happiness is definitely better than sloppiness but it is rungs less than the feeling of being high.

Uncertainty makes way for happiness…happiness makes way for emptiness…

Being high gives us the will to live…being happy gives the power to give up life.

In a way it is good if we have some unfulfilled dreams in life…although we never really admit but they are the ones which keep us alive and ticking.